Since I can remember I’ve always had to day mood charts every day, So people could see what sort of mood and then state of mind I was in. I was never a fan of this because it meant in a meeting with a Doctor it could be brought up and used against me (which it has been in the past) But now I’ve grown to respect them, It gives anyone who reads them a powerful glimpse into my mind, whether I’m severely depressed or in the grips of severe mania and not wanting to talk to people. So today I’ve had to go though the past two years worth to take to a meeting later, And I found some shocking things with it well I say shocking, It’s interstering to reread them and think about what’s happened or seeing the pattern slowly building up so then I’m aware of what to maybe expect soon.
So from the start of the year I’ve spent: 25 days in mania and 52 days in depression. Both of which are not proud facts of the year or my life really, the both sets of days I’ve lost work, friends, earnings, respect and trust, and also the latest one my home.
